Notes to myself

Epicness, not for this: It’s basic to think that doing some epic shit is a great way to grab attention and increase standing in your social hierarchy. This true. Doing epic shit can give you the fame and admiration your weak little soul may yearn. And with one step in this direction, you’ll have started…

What are some things you’ll regret? You’re 90 years old. What are you happy you did? What would you have done if you could have a retry at life?

What don’t you want? This is equally, if not more important, than what you want.  But be careful not to not-want things that are good for you. For example, suffering.  And what about those you love? What do they (think they) want? In what domains and categories are you willing to help others achieve their…

Every morning is an opportunity for a new life. This gets forgotten, often, especially when the night ends in drink and smoke. This is karma. Waking up in debt for decisions of yesterday. Not careful; this can replicate in weeks, months, and years, setting you so far back that no time available to you is…

If you had an option, to be a healthy white blood cell or cancer, you would pick healthy. The same goes for healthy vs dying or decaying. The answer is clear. The behaviour is simple: focus on serving, fixing, and building. That’s what healthy cells do. Doesn’t matter how you feel or what you think,…

Allow this moment to be as it is. Allow = surrender. To what? God. The Universe Perfection.

When reading and studying, consider, there are two types of knowledge. OS Upgrades App Downloads Sure, sometimes you need to download an app in your brain. Some new technique, skill, or process. But to see real massive strides forward, go for books and knowledge that upgrade your OS. Just like in real life, most Apps…

Below are my unfiltered thoughts to myself. Thought I’d share. I’m either a commander, a captain, a ruler, or a commando. When I am a commando, everything seems to be too slow, an obstacle to overcome, an enemy to slice. Nothing is good enough. Things are not good enough. People are not good enough. I…

It’s easier to find a warrior and train him to be a gentleman, than finding a coward and training him to be a warrior.

Confidence > Competence (massive failure) Confidence < Competence (massive underachievement) Confidence = Competence (Accurate progress) Confidence seesaw. Meek vs arrogant.

Fortune is a picky and fickle Goddess She gives love to men who are prone to act. Don’t get too comfortable with her praise and love. She is known to switch lovers with no warning, leaving men naked and empty, worse off than when they started.

Our governments are weak-kneed when it comes to the rich, and bullies when dealing with the poor. Look at any courtroom and see how the rich are treated, and those that cannot afford expensive representation. Look around and see how policies are influenced, and by which groups. See how harsh punishments are to the poor….

Of course, I love video games. As well as other forms of getting drunk, high, and out of this world. But some forms of pleasure are much more dangerous than others. For example, take working-out in comparison to playing video games. One opens the lungs, blood vessels, and the mind. The other takes us into…

Was well respected, but clearly a drunk. Do I need to drink to be my best? He died young. Perhaps he maximized his value through alcohol. Perhaps he short-lived his potential. Remember Bill Gates. This trip has brought out, created a drunk in me. Remember: you can achieve such nights of euphoria through meditation, exercise,…

Be happy. Spread happiness.

If your insults and condemnations regarding my nature and character are true, then our father’s investment in me was in vain. And such a thing brings dishonour and shame to his house. If your comments are untrue, your behaviour is one of a Liar. Such actions bring dishonour and shame to his house. Only a…

Within reach Family – Toronto, probably stoned.

Every time you speak to another person, you are at risk. Risk of what? Oh so many things. Risk of talking too much talking too little interpreting incorrectly interpreting correctly, and wishing you didn’t acting like a fool saying things you regret miscommunicating creating a new frienemy creating a new enemy sowing doubt, anger, hostility…

Okay. Good. So what? When is this not healthy? Probably when your interests and desires outweigh or contradict your child’s. – I love my children so fuck’n much. I could never have imagined joy and love like this. THROUGH my children. Through my children I live on. Through my children I learn to be a…

This life. It’s only a reenactment of the life of a sperm. Will we evolve? How can we even imagine such a thing? Imagine telling a little bitty sperm what an apple tastes like. Or the pleasure of taking a deep breath in a cool spring morning. It’s impossible. And so is explaining enlightenment to…

PS is where happiness is. Through S can you become fulfilled. There is an opposite correlation between financial wealth and happiness. Homo Deus. Page 33. The Order P: Physical S: Spiritual M: Mental E: Emotional

We, and especially I, am weak and faulty. My performance is heavily influenced by my environment and conditions. I need strict structure. Without it, I will never realize my potential.

The West is pushing hard for men to be more feminine. Cool. But other countries (our enemies) that look to devour us, are not feminine. They are not fair, equitable, beautiful, and complicated. They are masculine. Fierce. Dominating. Looking to devour its prey. Let’s not forget. For centuries, men were the protectors of women and…

A break is needed. The more I consume, the emptier I feel. Food. Drugs. Alcohol. Women. Eat, eat, eat. Emptiness. Refrain is needed. I’m hollowing out. – Vietnam

Yeah, I’m obsessed with death. By consciously being obsessed with death, I free my subconscious self from being obsessed with death. Do you not think your soul, your cells, your whole body knows it is in the process of decay, and that death awaits us all? It is the first thing your body is aware…