Been unsure Emotionally compromised Falling out of love for the game Unclear Trapped Surrounded Noise noise noise Frequencies jammed Clarity lost — Not my first, won’t be my last, rodeo. – Swimming to shoreWhat most aren’t willing to do. The email came in.Not my first rodeo.Not in a place to fake it.Only one initiate, the singular most amongst all domains: swim to shore.
Read moreNotes to myself
In spite: scale, scale, scale.
There’s a bias that we can’t scale if we attempt to keep our current culture intact. This bias is based on people’s understanding of what cultural norms are. We, PD, are not a ‘normal culture’ because we’re in Toronto. We’re being assessed based on the norms of industries in Toronto. Certain cultural artifacts, however odd…
Read moreLeadership: Our Style?
I refuse to believe there’s only one way of leading. While people intellectually agree, when our style of leading differs from their convention, they’re quick to judge and assume it’s ineffective. Seldom, if ever, does the difference excite curiosity and wonder, questions and conversation. No. Quite the opposite. We’re told it doesn’t work because of…
Read moreStillness.
To see reality,You must see clearly.When the water is muddy,You need to mud to settleFor the water to become clear.To do this, you do nothing.Stillness.It is the only true way to see reality.
Read moreThere’s so much to meditate on…
You’re getting better, becoming more of the future You, you imagine and dream of. But the old, Young You, still pulls. And when in the moment, the Youthful You takes control, while the Future You feels regret and shame, moments later. There is much to meditate on.It may be time to really dive deep, become…
Read moreThe Way
بِسْمِ ٱللهِ ٱلرَّحْمَٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيْمِ, Bismillah al-Rahman al-Rahim If you believe that the Universe, God, has chosen to bless you with power and influence, you must conclude that you have a duty to honour what you’ve been given. There’s a simple question: What does God want of you? That is the Way.
Read moreBroken People
Why are so many men and women broken? This is so very hard for me to understand. It’s especially hard to understand and empathize with people who lived and live privileged lives, complaining over trivial matters – meanwhile, we have heroes and heroines amongst us who have endured unimaginable hardships, and continue to battle new…
Read moreFear Drove Me
I didn’t have to be fearful or anxious. I didn’t have to punish myself, this unnecessary suffering, which only added weight, anchoring me to sadness and despair. I played the game on hard, and I didn’t know I had a choice to make it easy. In moments of blissful enlightenment, I realize how unnecessary it…
Read moreCowards just behave.
Cowards don’t recognize they are cowards. They just behave. As a snake does not identify as a snake, but simply behaves, so does a coward behave cowardly leaving a trail of fuckery, without truly identifying and accepting and acknowledging. Are you able to see the differences in animals?
Read moreDiscipline is hard, sans a schedule.
Discipline is so hard to have, especially when a schedule does not exist. I am enjoying the break from my normal disciplined life, for the most part. However, my inability to control my eating is cause for concern. What haven’t you done in a long time? Meditate bread in the middle of the day. Walk…
Read moreRomanticizing Kingdom
Yes, I have romantic feelings about life, history, and the future. From an early childhood, fascinated by Plato’s Republic, Alexander’s spreading of Athenian knowledge, the enlightenment era of Islam, and the never-setting sun of the English Empire. Dune. The ring bearers. Hogwarts. I believe.And why not? Why the fuck not?What are our options? Believing in…
Read moreSeek Approval
Of course, we do shit for the approval of others… The majority of us – let’s say, 99.9% of us – will always seek approval. We can work to release this biological reality for an eternity with no resolution. Or we can work with it and fuel our greatness. Seeking approval is not a sin…
Read moreI am…
I am an amplifier. I change things for the better. Everywhere I go, everything I touch, I improve on. This is an aspect of myself and my purpose.
Read moreDiscomfort From Disagreements
Why are disagreements uncomfortable? Man, what a big thing. Internal: To be liked. Not to be rejected. Not to become an outcast. External: Not wanting the person to feel unliked, rejected, or an outcast. What does the internal say about you?What does the external say about your perception (or understanding) of the other? What a…
Read moreNegotiation Through His Weakness
Every man has a weakness. Something they will never conquer (on their own). That is the entry point. That which you can do, overcome, and handle with ease, whilst this man struggles with. This is your entry point in negotiations. This is where range is your friend. The greater your range, the more you can…
Read moreWadel’s Fire
Thinking of Wadel. There are winners and losers. He’s a winner. Just in a rough spot. He’ll get out, eventually. He needs to stick with me. The world needs leadership. Hustlers. People with confidence and gusto. Fire in their bellies. Wadel is such a man.
Read moreWhat Are The Problems You Are Solving?
What is the quality of the problems that you are solving? It’s not what you’re worth that matters. It’s what the job is worth.
Read moreThe dangers of Unspoken Expectations
The dangers of Unspoken Expectations… Resentment. The dangers of harbouring slights, insults, offences… Resentment. So much pain stems from the unwillingness to surface such thoughts, discuss them, and resolve them.
Read moreChange at your age…
Can you change? Harder as you age. Why? How do you break free?
Read moreSpeed and Trajectory
I have plenty of people in my community who I’ve mentored. Some have been in the country for only 4-5 years and are miles ahead of you. Why?Are they smarter or better than you? No.They’re simply operating on a different OS. You’re not going to get from here to there downloading mental apps. You need…
Read moreAll this work’n…
Work’n on this, that, the business, and stuff. How much time are you investing in working on yourself?
Read moreYears of Experience?
Years of Experience? Irrelevant. Tell me about the Hours of Experience. What is the total hours, concentrated hours, of experience?
Read moreSerious Reset
Over my life, my days, where I put my energy. I need a serious serious reset. Nobody knows the pressures of a CEO. How much I’m stretched. How many different things are pulling me in different directions in a single hour, in a single moment? At the end of the day, I have completed nothing. …
Read moreEnjoy the work.
You will learn to enjoy the thing you need to do. All games are enjoyable. It’s on you to learn the game, and find enjoyment in it. Your work
Read moreConfidence or Courage?
Of course, courage all day long. Courage enables you to move forward. With courage, you develop experience. With experience, you build confidence. Courage comes before confidence.
Read moreSome of you have a spark
That fire within. That deserves to be flames. Sometimes ignited, sometimes fueled. It deserves to be alive, consuming, and raging, until it is within control, a consistent controlled burning.
Read moreClients with Baggage. We love them.
What is a perfect week?
DIETS Seven days of eating healthy. Lunch provides high protein, chicken breast, tuna, or boiled eggs. Super healthy grain bread and perhaps an avocado for extra fat. Dinners begin no later than 6 pm, starting with a large salad, followed by lean meat and a very small portion of healthy carbs. WORKOUTS Strong, stable, and…
Read moreExecutive Mentor
My company doesn’t need me doing 75% of the things I currently do. What my company needs is for me to grow to the next level of leadership. To do that most effectively and speedily, I need to surround myself with leaders I can respect, admire, look up to, and follow. I need to do…
Read moreYou, The Who?
Who are You? Who are you most pissed off at? You, the Weak.You, the Pathetic.You, the Mediocre. Who are you? You, the Conqueror.You, the Focused.You, the Disciplined. Ay You! The weak, pathetic, and mediocre! Whose love do you crave?Whose judgement do you fear?Who is the master you serve?! The love of Self, the Focused!The judgement…
Read moreWho’s talking about family?
FAMILY LIFE: Oh, how a good one amplifies success!
Read moreThe Cost of Dreams
Small dreams cost a little. Big dreams cost the same. Why do we pay so much in life to have little dreams,When we can have big dreams that pay dividends?
Read moreFlashiness and Slickness
The goal is to solve the problem, not to be sexy or flashy or slick. If solving the problem requires it, then so be it. But if it doesn’t, then don’t make it your priority. What is the problem? What is the most effective and efficient way to solve the problem? What is the problem…
Read moreAs vs Bs & Cs
A small team of A Players can run circles around a massive team of B and C Players. Can you think dialectically? (from YYZ to SFO)
Read moreDetachment
I need to keep a healthy distance from my generals and soldiers. (from YYZ to SFO)
Read moreFocus
Focus. The word I avoid looking at. It’s my Achilles Heel. I can do anything, but only if I focus. My days and weeks get devoured by unfocused activities. Not nearly enough water and sun are devoted to my seeds of greatness. Opportunities floundered. This is the thing I must master. Relentless, simplified: focus. (from…
Read moreProblems = Opportunities
Calmness and composure. Going into 45, this is what must be mastered. Solving problems is the work. Without problems, there’s no work. Problems = opportunity to solve = work = value = money. Repeat over and over again. (from YYZ to SFO)
Read moreClass > Money
I’d rather be poor and have class, than rich and without class.
Read moreMy issue with your enlightenment:
So you did (another) hero dose of psychedelics. 👍👍👍 Good for you, buddy. And how long will you hold on to your newfound enlightenment before you need another dose? As if the wise sages in the past needed deprivation tanks, shamans, energy healing, micro and macro dosing. For fucks sakes. Get over yourself. Grow up. Mature. …
Read moreWhat You Signal
In Life There are unintentional signs you signal to others.When it is unintentional, you can bet that it’s not to your advantage.For oponents who can read the signals and signs, it’s similar to them reading you like a simple book. A book on how to influence you. For the kind in heart, this makes no…
Read moreOn Compliance
To multiply yourself, you need a team that complies. Compliance requires you to establish a system with checks and balances, along with a reporting mechanism. Assess compliance and improve the system based on the evaluated performance. This cycle (create > evaluate > iterate) continues. With each cycle, the goal is to achieve higher compliance. Ultimately,…
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Read morePet Peeve: Out-of-Touch Leaders
You know one of my pet peeves? Something that really pisses me off? When people in positions of authority and power become disconnected from the community they serve, they become clueless about the feelings of the ordinary person. This happens in government. We see it a lot lately in Canadian politics. It also occurs in…
Read moreDo Epic Things
Epicness, not for this: It’s basic to think that doing some epic shit is a great way to grab attention and increase standing in your social hierarchy. This true. Doing epic shit can give you the fame and admiration your weak little soul may yearn. And with one step in this direction, you’ll have started…
Read moreAlgorithmic Addiction (pt 2)
Just a little. Only a couple minutes. Telltale signs of addiction. When you’re on autopilot. When your hands and feet move effortlessly, gracefully, into the fire you know will burn. How little control we have when our controls get stuck on autopilot. Who amongst us is above addiction? Who amongst us above the highly trained…
Read moreDecision Journey
The journey from weak to strong to enlightened. Indecision Decisive Indifference
Read moreHow to Write
1. Write. Write jibberish. Write stupidity. Write your feelings. Then, write why your feelings are dumb. Write why you love someone. Then, write all the things you hate about someone. Write why liberals are stupid. Then, write why conservatives are dumb. Write about racism, prejudice, and social justice. Then, write why you can’t stand certain…
Read more90-year old’s regrets
What are some things you’ll regret? You’re 90 years old. What are you happy you did? What would you have done if you could have a retry at life?
Read moreMilitary Hat 🪖
When I’m wearing my military general hat, my Captain’s hat… I love it. I love the clarity.I love the absolution.Structure.Precision.Focus.Pointed and with purpose. Yes, this is an extreme version of me. And while I wear this hat and live through this uniform, I am intense. Those who don’t know me, understandably mistake me for being…
Read moreWants, and other questions
What don’t you want? This is equally, if not more important, than what you want. But be careful not to not-want things that are good for you. For example, suffering. And what about those you love? What do they (think they) want? In what domains and categories are you willing to help others achieve their…
Read moreIdeas: Small? Big? Massive?
Are your ideas small? Why aren’t they massive? Your ideas, what’s the endgame?
Read moreA young lady’s charm.
At some point in a young lady’s childhood, she learns that she can get far using her charm, her wit and her beauty. There comes a point in her adult life when her charm, wit, and beauty do not suffice. What else does she have to offer? She better have the grit. The might, discipline,…
Read moreNew day. New life.
Every morning is an opportunity for a new life. This gets forgotten, often, especially when the night ends in drink and smoke. This is karma. Waking up in debt for decisions of yesterday. Not careful; this can replicate in weeks, months, and years, setting you so far back that no time available to you is…
Read moreThe Descent of a Soul: A Journey Through Temptation and Reflection
In many ways, bad ways, I have devolved. Weaknesses have run amok. Coasting. Eating away the good fortune created yesterday.Stealing goodwill from tomorrow. Where is my soul? Like being trapped by a black hole. Being pulled. I see the disasters, and rather than change trajectory, rather than fly back the opposite way, I flow like the river into…
Read moreExpectations for leaders
Want more money?Want to think and perform like a leader?What is your current thinking like?What is your current behaviour like? How fragile are you?How much of your thoughts and actions are unchecked? Are you easily disturbed?Do you easily break? Would you follow someone like you? What are the qualities you believe a leader should exhibit? How…
Read moreDoing well.
We have a responsibility to build a business that not only supports but goes above the basics. Mother birds “In measuring out rewards, wise rulers act like mother birds. While seeing into every corner; they are unobtrusive. While protecting the people, they do not control them.“ excerpt from Chapter 10, Tao Te Ching
Read moreGod! Help me from the screen!
The screen!!! Beware the screen!!! You need a morning mantra. By your bedside. Evening mantra, by the mantra. You need God.
Read moreLOL. Your Looping.
Lol. You’re looping. Same shit, every week. You need to be yourself. Your level of intensity. But different from before. Yes, you can live with your people. But more important, you must lead them. First, you must lead yourself. What a joke. You’re cycling. Looping. Week after week. What are your expectations? You love _______….
Read moreI pretend to be a philosopher.
Find your happy place — one place at a time. Both physical and mental. I pretend to be a philosopher.
Read moreStop Judging
Stop judging. Stop complaining. Stop judging. Stop complaining. Stop judging. Stop complaining. Winners find solutions. Losers complain. Be a winner. The enlightened accept and love. The unconscious complain. Be enlightened. Stop judging. Stop complaining. People are attracted to the light. Be enlightened. People feel weighted by your complaints. Stop complaining. Judgemental people are weak. Those…
Read moreThe Game
I am obsessed with the Game. I love the Game. I prefer playing the Game more than any other activity. I love obsessing over the Game, more than thinking about anything else. What is the Game? People call it different things. People keep track of the score in their own, infinitely unique way. Success is…
Read moreThrough Detachment
Only through true detachment, can I think clear. Through true detachment, my feelings are no longer blown by the winds of the external.
Read moreBe a white blood cell
If you had an option, to be a healthy white blood cell or cancer, you would pick healthy. The same goes for healthy vs dying or decaying. The answer is clear. The behaviour is simple: focus on serving, fixing, and building. That’s what healthy cells do. Doesn’t matter how you feel or what you think,…
Read moreWhat ruins a community
Having qualms about a member of your community, sharing your qualms with others, but not having the guts to talk to the person directly. This plants seeds of resentment in your own heart, and seeds of doubt and dislike in the hearts of the listener. Some of those doubts and disenchantment are of the person…
Read moreSurrender
Allow this moment to be as it is. Allow = surrender. To what? God. The Universe Perfection.
Read moreA few notes from Subtle Art of Not Giving a F
What is the value that you hold so dear? What is the (made up) metric that you measure the progress towards that value? Problems may be inevitable, but their meanings don’t need to be. Our values determine the metrics by which we measure others and ourselves. If you want to change how you see your…
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