Just a little. Only a couple minutes.
Telltale signs of addiction.
When you’re on autopilot. When your hands and feet move effortlessly, gracefully, into the fire you know will burn.
How little control we have when our controls get stuck on autopilot.
Who amongst us is above addiction?
Who amongst us above the highly trained algorithms, specifically designed to cater to each individual’s weaknesses?
And how many times do you go through the feelings of emptiness, regret, shame, and guilt?
Emptiness. Yes.
Regret. Of course.
But shame and guilt? No. Not when the opponent is so vastly superior. And what use is shame or guilt? No.
What must be done is to double down on commitments. To examine the enemy. Study it carefully, from a distance, from different angles and perspectives.
What must be done is to double down on fortitude. To examine one’s weaknesses and vulnerabilities that the enemy exploits.
The battle may have been lost.
It may take many moments to recover. But the war continues. The war continues because the enemy will not yield until you are completely emptied, broken, and hooked. The war rages on. And the best way to win is to abstain. The strategy of non-entry, of not entering the ring, is the only way to win. Your fuel is stillness.
One less soul for the algorithms to feed off.
